why

i really really love him..
yes yes.. YES.!! i really do .____.

i want love. love.!! i WANT~
T___T' desperate of care and LOVE...
wadapak

nvm.. is over SOB.!
why my love always so short and so suck .___.

say let go jek
so easy meh.? if really so easy then no need so fuk lar
death poeple head.!!



i miss u T__T'

diappear

if one day i diappear. wil u forget me.?
nope

but i never ask
if one day i disappear. wil u find me.?
T^T

y.. my heart beat race like F1 car..
NO.. is jet.! very fast~


i realise~ my heart to u wil never die
u can don't love me
but please dun wish that i can stop loving u - I CANT stop

i just wish u realise that i was by your side when i m gone now
loving u monkey

arhh.!!

aarh..!! i m going crazy dy
real crazy..

hate all this shit feeling~ -____-
sien lar
explode... no going to care

chil for days
and let it be. alone
i pun wan be alone .__.

2 in one ♥ reali wil die faster.!
foO shen~ u this hapi boi wer r u.?
i wan chat with u.. Lol =.='

blast blast ... BLAST my ears..
sei lor~
y i m so lifeless liaO

so sien.. god. r u playing me.?
i really surrender. please

whats in my mind

he really a pig.. -____-

i~ letting go and never holding back
sometimes realy want to hate him
♥ but love and hate cannot be in a same time .___.

he care me.? he wil.~ but not cause he love me
he said is just his responsibility = sympathy.?
dont want to know. i just want to appreciate

he love me.? ♥
he wil never~ cause i had try my best

played by him.?
not counted but had pass..
i just wish he had got enough for me
wat i want just a real sincere from him even being a special one
cause i had been fool enough..
very pain T___T

when he wil stop everything and lookz at me


♥ last promise.?
yes i wil keep the promise.. stupid waiting
but never letting him know

so... stil care him.?
nah.~ never.. i wil never care his stuff anymore
he kau lui his problem
his life got girls but is not me.! xD

cause i dun want hurt so dun wanna care
dun wan care so dun want to know~
=)

but as in care him not his life.?
this is diff story :D
care.. let it flow lor~ ♥

i just wil~
never letting him know ♥ 'i love him'
not caring him as he had use to it
not going to bother him until..
when i feel hurt throwing him aside

cause
if he knw i love him
his heart wil get more far away
when i care him more
is like uLu glue stick to his life. he wil hate me
but if he down
i wish i can cheer him up

cause i miss his smile than his emo pig faCe (=

i cant stop him from giving me hurt ♥

so i need to protect my heart my own
care him lesser
blind my eyes and dun want knowing the truth

he love me or not.?
rather duno than getting a NO
but i wil wait u say ♥ "yes~"


put this in my mind
"he wil never ♥ love me. dun think he wil.. never~ "
but my heart cant stop telling myself that
"i love u.. nicholas"

kesian me

Lawl.. kesian me
today is the first time i eat my lunch in such a huge college -alone-!
u know how big is tarC in setapak.?

i like someone kena dumped aside..
sob sob T____T
eat also no taste~
but hav to eat mah.. if not later gastriC
sienZ

stupid teacher sudden today say no BIO.!
yay.~ but 2 hours break..
doing nothing~
time pass like an arrow
why r.?
but one thing is true ♥ .. time heals (=

wee.. everything is like no real.?
i kinda blur haha xD
life.!! rocK it man...
enjoy to the maX.!

yay.! i m glad i had totally let go
the pain. ♥ the love - everything (=
after the nite cry all out

study study.... study.....
sigh. eXam coming. sei lor~
dun care.! must score A

gone (=

there's only once
never twiCe
gone mean gone~

no point holding
letting it go
and moving on

girl stay strong
don't look back
never tears

empty heart ♥
without love
just the pain
it had gone

heart is feel
when only u in my eyes
smile at u (=
appreciate what i left

not the love
is the heart

someone special
more than friend
less than nothing

but
the last promise ♥

after cry

after cry.. everythings change~
nothing left. heart taken back ♥
even is broken but times heal (=

i know how hard i tried to hold it. is already too late
end is end~
just let everything start over again..
now i feel much diff xD

i start to feel my heartbeat..
it race like F1 car when i miss him
yes~ i love him
but
all had start from zero after i cry million of times (=

pass memory had washed
no more thinking back
he fall from the starting point again..
wil he beyond my wall one more time.?
or
he wil just stay outside and just fren~

i had pour all my love to him out of my heart
is empty again..
never love never hope
bye memory~
i wil restore a new memory.. friend (=

i appreaciate i had love u - my lover before
but pain have to go.. dun wanna it come back
and i rmb u said u promise that wont hurt me again
i wish is true ♥

i wont miss the pass anymore
cause i dun wan fall a tears

somehow. nothing left
tired holding.. is time to let go~
let it flow..

telling u something

write on the sand. it wil washed away by sea water
but i wrote it on my heart ♥
it wil be forever there~

y telling u that i love u is so hard.?
y i have to pretend to hate u.?
cause
i scare once u know
u wil go away

u know.? i rather blind myself up
to love ♥ u forever

wil u love me is not a question mark anymore
but
but please dont tell me that u leave
cause i don wanna stop loving u


5201314 of love is not enough time to fold
but 520 ♥ of heart is pure
to u
i love u

haix. y lar love.?

sigh.~ sometimes think back..
also not nothing dy
if he treat me nothing. if i m nothing to him
he wont come A level for me
wont be by my side
and won't waste money on me T__T'
alot alot more

dunnO lar..
i just stil wanna believe he do love me .___.
lie or turth. is does not matter
cause i chose to love and not chose to accpet the truth

y love ♥ thing so complicated..
he might lies.. i can close 2 eyes.~
see hows thing go lor
sigh may be he is really not my forever

actualy just simple lar.
i wanna forget every pass thing just start a new love sincerly with him
he last time lie or dun lie
love me or not~ not important ler
if god giv a chance to start again.. i wil stil love him
how nice if his heart just got me
not his ex also -____-

sigh T__T'
y wan u to love me only so hard.?
i just wanna be with u and love u~

suan le bah~
if i just now dun so rude then he wont hurt ler
haix...

let go bah.. he not my forever ♥
even though i love him. he wont..
silent love in heart. guess is enough

lost

sorry ♥

i dun mean it