you are..
freaking annoying.!
to him.. i know i m.~ actually is very hurt to hear that so i stop contacting him since two days night agO... or somtimes just a msg. "nite" and so i decided to change to 012 next tuesday because jerr promise to bring me nice number. ^.^ digi will stil use but will be very less. i realise other den chatting with evelyn and him then i wil not using phone.~ ya.! he say is truth. i clingy on him too much..
now.~ mm.. i guess i had ready let go.! altough every night i will think back our happy memory but i just have no heart feeling on that anymore. it just fade away like this. and i dint not hold back so i just let it fade away.~ i found that actually he love me or not is really not important to me anymore. really.~ i do not know future i will fall on him again anot but i wil try hard not to fall on the him again. i had build the wall as high as it going touch the sky ^.^ and now for sure. i wont love him and i slowly don't love him d.. i just give up.~
sometimes i think that i love him so deep cause we use to see each other many time in a week and play alot.~ when during the night before sleep.. i think back bout my ex.~ actually i love them alot too. is just last time i don't appreciate them so now i lost them.. while talk about ex.~ emm.. i wil never forget one of my bext ex. boon yau.! he treat me the best among all my boyfiend. really ^.^ he care me reallot and he give me all his time. his everything but i keep reject. this was my bigest mistake.~ that i dint appreciate him.! somtime really regret but i got the lesson. yesterday my fren yee ing bring me in to their conversation.. i lost contact with boon yau since long time and yee ing try to help me. thankz.! and so we talk together yesterday. happy.~ but did not talk much...
so bout nicholas lee.. i love him alot before and for truth we always couple and break.~ somtimes it really does not work it.~ and i really happy to have him as friend now. i ask him before " why u so hate me but always treat me so good.? " he reply " because i want u to change better.. " i got touched.~ he always wishing me to change but somtime not say want change then change.. it takes time. and now i tyring to... he does not wan me lie.. truth to say.~ i lie really alot. uncountable.! but is lesser now.
while he really a nice guy but when i was his girlfriend that time. i did not treat him as a boyfriend like my other ex before.. means i dint play with him as i play other ex and alot. may be because of we only meet once a week and rarely sms or call over. he stil using 012 and i 016 since i meet him.. so may b this is the reason i less contact him.~ only msn wil chat somtimes.~ the thing is.. i trust him but he kinda dangerous xD he is a devil. i know but is very dangerous for me to show up my devil because.. i scare he cant control.. will end up regretness... =.=' but ming sung different.. we know we play and i can stop him.~ i know his weakness but i don't know nicholas weakness..
and one more thing.. i treat him different.~ he is a guy and was my boyfriend. but i treat him different then others.. when we just friend. i dun use to flirt with him.~ i feel err... weird if i flirt with him.. and also i care him less.. normal guy i just jump into it.. and cares like brothers.. hug when meet but not everyone.! like jerr.. i talk to him alot. and we hug ^.^ just friend nothing else.. and i sumthing wil flirt with him " jerr.. i wan chocolate :D " and sumtimes he wil buy me.~ haha.. of coz la not always.. but i love giv him lollipop.~ while truth to say that i treat guy alot better then girls xD haha.... i hang out with guys more. LOLx.!
but.. when i get to be nicholas girlfriend before.. i dint call him. honey hubbi and what so ever lao gong before.. =.=' i was like.. yuck.~ i really need call him that.? LOLx.. but is ok that i always call my other ex.. hubbi. honey. lao gong. sweetheart.~ alot.! but o dint call him that way.. i feel.. err.....? haha really weird. if i treat him as i treat my other ex.. he wil think i sot liao or may be brian got big function error.~ haha. really la... he say i eat wrong medicine before. cause i tried =.=' haha.. if i can be his girlfriend again.~ i wil treat him super different.! i wan tel him.. actually i m devil and i use to treat good and care alot.. just dint treat him like that only xD haha..
and so he is the first leng zai in my bf list and next is ming sung.~ cause i meet ming sung late but stil they 2 is leng zai la :D actually i got some leng zai ex.. not only they.. stil got u-jean erm kiing.. hey.! too much.. haha dun wan tell d.~ if say what type guy i love.. erm.. devil. leng zai. play music. basketball. dance like classic :D so i can dance with him LOLx.. and smart then me.. alot knowledge knowable.! haha... but now.. dint think about GUY anymore.. spm wei.~ stil got.. err. less then a month. walao.!!
ciao first.~ study... xDD
freaking annoying.!
to him.. i know i m.~ actually is very hurt to hear that so i stop contacting him since two days night agO... or somtimes just a msg. "nite" and so i decided to change to 012 next tuesday because jerr promise to bring me nice number. ^.^ digi will stil use but will be very less. i realise other den chatting with evelyn and him then i wil not using phone.~ ya.! he say is truth. i clingy on him too much..
now.~ mm.. i guess i had ready let go.! altough every night i will think back our happy memory but i just have no heart feeling on that anymore. it just fade away like this. and i dint not hold back so i just let it fade away.~ i found that actually he love me or not is really not important to me anymore. really.~ i do not know future i will fall on him again anot but i wil try hard not to fall on the him again. i had build the wall as high as it going touch the sky ^.^ and now for sure. i wont love him and i slowly don't love him d.. i just give up.~
sometimes i think that i love him so deep cause we use to see each other many time in a week and play alot.~ when during the night before sleep.. i think back bout my ex.~ actually i love them alot too. is just last time i don't appreciate them so now i lost them.. while talk about ex.~ emm.. i wil never forget one of my bext ex. boon yau.! he treat me the best among all my boyfiend. really ^.^ he care me reallot and he give me all his time. his everything but i keep reject. this was my bigest mistake.~ that i dint appreciate him.! somtime really regret but i got the lesson. yesterday my fren yee ing bring me in to their conversation.. i lost contact with boon yau since long time and yee ing try to help me. thankz.! and so we talk together yesterday. happy.~ but did not talk much...
so bout nicholas lee.. i love him alot before and for truth we always couple and break.~ somtimes it really does not work it.~ and i really happy to have him as friend now. i ask him before " why u so hate me but always treat me so good.? " he reply " because i want u to change better.. " i got touched.~ he always wishing me to change but somtime not say want change then change.. it takes time. and now i tyring to... he does not wan me lie.. truth to say.~ i lie really alot. uncountable.! but is lesser now.
while he really a nice guy but when i was his girlfriend that time. i did not treat him as a boyfriend like my other ex before.. means i dint play with him as i play other ex and alot. may be because of we only meet once a week and rarely sms or call over. he stil using 012 and i 016 since i meet him.. so may b this is the reason i less contact him.~ only msn wil chat somtimes.~ the thing is.. i trust him but he kinda dangerous xD he is a devil. i know but is very dangerous for me to show up my devil because.. i scare he cant control.. will end up regretness... =.=' but ming sung different.. we know we play and i can stop him.~ i know his weakness but i don't know nicholas weakness..
and one more thing.. i treat him different.~ he is a guy and was my boyfriend. but i treat him different then others.. when we just friend. i dun use to flirt with him.~ i feel err... weird if i flirt with him.. and also i care him less.. normal guy i just jump into it.. and cares like brothers.. hug when meet but not everyone.! like jerr.. i talk to him alot. and we hug ^.^ just friend nothing else.. and i sumthing wil flirt with him " jerr.. i wan chocolate :D " and sumtimes he wil buy me.~ haha.. of coz la not always.. but i love giv him lollipop.~ while truth to say that i treat guy alot better then girls xD haha.... i hang out with guys more. LOLx.!
but.. when i get to be nicholas girlfriend before.. i dint call him. honey hubbi and what so ever lao gong before.. =.=' i was like.. yuck.~ i really need call him that.? LOLx.. but is ok that i always call my other ex.. hubbi. honey. lao gong. sweetheart.~ alot.! but o dint call him that way.. i feel.. err.....? haha really weird. if i treat him as i treat my other ex.. he wil think i sot liao or may be brian got big function error.~ haha. really la... he say i eat wrong medicine before. cause i tried =.=' haha.. if i can be his girlfriend again.~ i wil treat him super different.! i wan tel him.. actually i m devil and i use to treat good and care alot.. just dint treat him like that only xD haha..
and so he is the first leng zai in my bf list and next is ming sung.~ cause i meet ming sung late but stil they 2 is leng zai la :D actually i got some leng zai ex.. not only they.. stil got u-jean erm kiing.. hey.! too much.. haha dun wan tell d.~ if say what type guy i love.. erm.. devil. leng zai. play music. basketball. dance like classic :D so i can dance with him LOLx.. and smart then me.. alot knowledge knowable.! haha... but now.. dint think about GUY anymore.. spm wei.~ stil got.. err. less then a month. walao.!!
ciao first.~ study... xDD
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