final i had back to single life.~
i learn alot.. really alot and cry alot :p nOw i think back.. i m really stupid.. nOw i understand when it is not mean to be together mean it wOnt.~ after aday of tired crying.. i stand up back.. is not easy to recover so fast but i have to cause i wil c him almost everythime when tuitiOn.. i be back myself. actually i should be happy cause i know 3 best friend this year.. jake.. andrian. evy and also jerr. thankx guys alot.~
while.. this post might be the last post i wrote bout him.. is already my ex.. is over yesterday.~ i had try my best to take him back but cant.. is toO late and is over means end.! but i think is better i his friend.. atleat i can play along with him.~ he is different. really different from all the people i know in this wrold. he is sO special to me but i cant take him. he is not mine.. anymOre.
while.. this post might be the last post i wrote bout him.. is already my ex.. is over yesterday.~ i had try my best to take him back but cant.. is toO late and is over means end.! but i think is better i his friend.. atleat i can play along with him.~ he is different. really different from all the people i know in this wrold. he is sO special to me but i cant take him. he is not mine.. anymOre.
lets write bout last memory we had..
i wrote here so i can forget everything to be back myself.~
i was being strOng for toO long time
haix.. tired.!
i wrote here so i can forget everything to be back myself.~
i was being strOng for toO long time
haix.. tired.!
when thinking baCk our memOry.. really got alot. alot we have gO through. 3 month 12 days we had been together.. and this is the 3rd time we break.. the first time we break is cause my parents caught us.~ 2nd time cause yr love fading away. 3rd time is nOw. cause u dont love anymOre.!!
first is i knOw at kasturi ^-^ on one thursday chemistry class.. he get my fully attention.~ he diff that day. he spike his hair.. he wear his tie. he wear until so yeng to tuition.! then i start look at him.~ he sit behind me.. beside the wall. i remember.. then i keep whisper to my friends which sit beside me. "he look yeng today when he spike hair and wear so formal.~" and once i look behind to him.. and stare at him one kind. " why sudden u spike your hair.? " this is the first time i talk to him.~ he reply and look weird "what.? " lolx.. he is cute with the smile.. on that time. i had a crush on him. and i started to love his smile alot. and i dunnO why.? this is my 2nd image to him.. y not first image.? cause
first time i saw him was he siting outside the class alone playing his hp.. his pant is super different from what normal people wear. is look lik gangster people wear. the pants seem like going to fall anytime. i think " yerr.. why he wear like this.? " i and my other friend pass by saw oso say " yerr.. " so the first image he give me was terrible. i dun even want to know him.. he was the guy cOme at march this year to tuition. he is a new classmate to me. sO i put my eye on him sOmetimes.~ i always wonder. wat kind of people is him. he is different. in class. he always ask stupid question. that show he is smart. he is genius. but he just like me. like ask stupid questiOn make trouble to teacher.. i start to have interes On him.~ he is really different and special.~
after all.. i start stare at him with nO reason. i wan to know him. so i think alot way to get to know him.~ i thinking so hard. cause he is not normal guy. not easy to knOw him ^.^ while that time his gang of friend was just siting behind me.. one roll.. i know.~ stil one more friend.. wil cOme during 2nd class. and the roll is full. the " one more friend " sure wil sit sOmwhere near..
is my chance now.! then i purposely leave a space beside me.~
yay.. bingO.~ the guy cOme.. his friend sit beside me.! i can know him tru his friend. haha. happy sia.! so i started to talk to his friend. he name jeremy.. ( thanks jeremy.! ) that time my ex bought a pack of nuts.! i repeat.. is nut.!! LOLx.. what kind of guy of him. wear got people eat nut in class dy.? he start eating.. and so i tel jeremy " wat he eating.? " .. he said is sunflower seed.~ first thing cOmes to my mind. ^.^ thats hamster food.!! LOLz. he just like a little cute hamster to me. i tel jerremy that what hamster eat.~ and he say yea. is hamster food.. then that day onwards. i start naming him hamster and i dunno his name yet.~ sO later on. jerr get me sOme sunflower seed wan wan me to try sOme.. yes.~! i can get his attentiOn now.. i look at him and i smile. and so i took the "food".. i start acting donno how to eat that.. and jerr teach me. i knOw i had get his attention.~ happy.! really..
oh.! i miss a part.. which on the day he spike hair. he wrote me a note.. i was siting infront of his friend.. his friend touch my shoulder and pass me the note.~ without turning behind.. i know is him.! is his pass me the note. is not his friend wei zhong.. i know cause i have a strong feeling telling me. and it wil never wrOng. only he this kind of daring persOn will do that. haha.~ and i start to reply him.. at first is nice to chat with passing the note but after i feel he start to get annoy. i feel sOme dislike him and he make me scold by teacher.!! wat... fire.~ and paiseh. and he laugh me sOmemore when i get scold.. LOLx. i reali feel kungfu-ing him. lucky he not siting beside me. if not sure whack him nicely xD haha.
then he start to wan my hp num.. and so i gave him.~ rmb.? i m trying to know him. bingO. i got it.~ he start msg me in class.! i m happy that i got his number.. and after that i realise i make a super big misstake.! that is he start to spam me during the cool night.. cause i have been busying study for my next day exam.. what the.. i just slow reply him and he start spam me "bagur" wah... my hp keep rang and keep vibrate. i feel wan throw it in to sOmewhere.!! he spam me until i have no chanCe to reply him.! the msg is just keep cOming in nonstop.!! i feel like killing people dy. i hate him alot that time. i really really hate him..!! then i have nO choice just off my dam hp.~ on fire.. after i finish all my project and everything. is time to sleep.
i on baCk my hp.. its cOmes again.!! his msg... arr.~ chil chil.. i keep chil myself. and just delete it one by one.! gearm sia.. but to this type of special guy.! alien.. i cant angry to him. i have to chil. i know if i angry then he wil do it again and feel he sucess make me angry.~ haha. never let him dream that way.. finally the msg i had delete all.. all his msg. then i start telling him i am a play girl so he wont put any interes on me even have a interes to spam me.!! but... after i telling him i m a play girl.. he dint angry me but he say he understand y.. wow.! faint.!! i really surrender. but that day onward.. he did not spam me already..
next lessOn we same class again. and i see him once mOre. he request to sit with me. so i sit with him on chemistry and physic class sit behind the class.. first time i sit with him.. i am quite happy. ^.^ i am just so near to him.. i leave my friend and i sit with him.! LOLx. i am really bad right. i dunO what poisOn he had giv me until..haha.~ while we start to play truth and dare.~ he always him -.-' but finally he let me win :p then i dare him to kiss me and he dare me same thing to.. i just wanna to test him.. to test his heart.! started wanting his heart. not just want to know him only.. and how dare him.~ he kiss me on the stairs before we go back home. my first kiss from him.~ i..... sweet til i dunO how to describe.!! he make me miss it alot.~
after that i start sit with him in the class. start talk to him. chat with him.. and alot.. play.~ tickle him and laugh along.. he is just a devil. finally i found a devil in my life.. is him.!! i started to fall on him.. my heart start jumping faster when everytime i see him.. i feel i have the most happy time with him.~ i start to want thw whole week only got thursday so i can meet him everyday.. and we get closer day by day.. i miss him mOre day by day.! i start to love him... but i keep it in heart.. then..
on 31 may.. we went to sushi king.. and he ask for couple face to face.. he whisper to my ear " would you be mine.? " i am super happy and i agree.. on that day. we is an official couple.~ he hug start to hug me.. hold my hand. and he leave summit with giving me goodbye kiss.. that is sweet thing ever i had in my life.. on that time onward. i start love his smile.. cause when he smile really leng zai and sweet my heart.. he cool that time was so cool. xD i fall on his every actiOn. and i start to exchange his secret and he started to tell me his secret that he dun ever tell people..
he is just like my dream princes. he basketball player. he sing. dance. shuffle.. liquid. and genius. and leng zai and he is a devil.~ the devil i wanted to find for so long.~ already 17 years i been finding.. i found him and i lost him now.. first few week.. our relationship goes well and play happily.. and he gave me his frist unnormal kiss.. but one day..we took awalk outside.. he was holding my hand and i was lying on his shoulder and look for something to eat.! then my dad caught us.. he wan us to break.~ cause he gave me a love mark my dad saw.. and so i request to break.~ this is the first time i cry for him..
but i still cant let him gO.. we together baCk few day later.. then i though things will go right baCk but not.. his love to me start to fade.. and he start to wan me play a game. cannot say " i love u" cannot on top of him. hug him and sOme.. that week is the mOst terrible week i get.. i m start to suffer. i know his love graph to me had droping.. i just wan to bring it up.~ and i did.. we back to normal again.. but nO long more... his heart fade away again.~ this is the 2nd time.. we talk on the stairs.. i ask him.? " do u still love me.? " he shake his head and say only can be friend.. i dun trust him and i keep asking til i cant hold on anymOre.. i cried infront of him and he also... i cry alot.!! he try to hug me. and i push him away... we break.. our 2nd time break.!
i cry alot after that... i start learn how to cry and i cant be strong anymOre.. then.. but the next day.. i think very probably. i wan tel him " i wont love him anymOre. " so that day.. he totally different. i know he was try to act like normal but his smile is the worst smile i ever saw.! he just holding.. he wanted to cry.. i know. he cant take it. after class. i pull him down to the stairs.. and he start to cry. is dark. so i act in i dunno he cry but i cnt let him just cry like this.~ so i just sms and told him " i wont love u anymore.." then he cry more. i am to hurt to lie him. so i pull him up and hug him so he can cry on my shoulder.. after that day.. everything back to normall.. he love me more. he found his love back.~ i tot everything is over.! but not yet..
btw that we have one unfrogetable memory :p is we kena lock in the emergency stair case. we are lock. is dark scary.. my heart like going to pump out.. how.? how to go our.? die la... lock inside.. so chill my self.. keep thing ways.. i took his phone cal the counter to open back.~ phew... luckily.. i call my ex go up the stairs and i tell the worker to go down ckeck there is a death rat.. ad he quickly run out.. xD haha if the worker catch us dating there.. sure kena.! LOLx. y they suddenly lock the door wor. pig la.~ and many thing happen in the class.. scold my teacher cause we use to play in class. haha and alot..
we had alot alot of memory..!!
we sit together. i feed him eat before. eat together and lot more
while this time... he had his family problem... he start put me aside for so many days.. i dunno he still love me anot.~ i think he not le.. so we break d.~ story end.. our happiness.. is just memory.! i really miss him.. til nOw.. i hurt til dunnO how to cry again.! we are just friend now.. and friend thats stil hurt.. thank ming sung. u let me learn alot and let me love u alot. and i til keep it.. bie!
first is i knOw at kasturi ^-^ on one thursday chemistry class.. he get my fully attention.~ he diff that day. he spike his hair.. he wear his tie. he wear until so yeng to tuition.! then i start look at him.~ he sit behind me.. beside the wall. i remember.. then i keep whisper to my friends which sit beside me. "he look yeng today when he spike hair and wear so formal.~" and once i look behind to him.. and stare at him one kind. " why sudden u spike your hair.? " this is the first time i talk to him.~ he reply and look weird "what.? " lolx.. he is cute with the smile.. on that time. i had a crush on him. and i started to love his smile alot. and i dunnO why.? this is my 2nd image to him.. y not first image.? cause
first time i saw him was he siting outside the class alone playing his hp.. his pant is super different from what normal people wear. is look lik gangster people wear. the pants seem like going to fall anytime. i think " yerr.. why he wear like this.? " i and my other friend pass by saw oso say " yerr.. " so the first image he give me was terrible. i dun even want to know him.. he was the guy cOme at march this year to tuition. he is a new classmate to me. sO i put my eye on him sOmetimes.~ i always wonder. wat kind of people is him. he is different. in class. he always ask stupid question. that show he is smart. he is genius. but he just like me. like ask stupid questiOn make trouble to teacher.. i start to have interes On him.~ he is really different and special.~
after all.. i start stare at him with nO reason. i wan to know him. so i think alot way to get to know him.~ i thinking so hard. cause he is not normal guy. not easy to knOw him ^.^ while that time his gang of friend was just siting behind me.. one roll.. i know.~ stil one more friend.. wil cOme during 2nd class. and the roll is full. the " one more friend " sure wil sit sOmwhere near..
is my chance now.! then i purposely leave a space beside me.~
yay.. bingO.~ the guy cOme.. his friend sit beside me.! i can know him tru his friend. haha. happy sia.! so i started to talk to his friend. he name jeremy.. ( thanks jeremy.! ) that time my ex bought a pack of nuts.! i repeat.. is nut.!! LOLx.. what kind of guy of him. wear got people eat nut in class dy.? he start eating.. and so i tel jeremy " wat he eating.? " .. he said is sunflower seed.~ first thing cOmes to my mind. ^.^ thats hamster food.!! LOLz. he just like a little cute hamster to me. i tel jerremy that what hamster eat.~ and he say yea. is hamster food.. then that day onwards. i start naming him hamster and i dunno his name yet.~ sO later on. jerr get me sOme sunflower seed wan wan me to try sOme.. yes.~! i can get his attentiOn now.. i look at him and i smile. and so i took the "food".. i start acting donno how to eat that.. and jerr teach me. i knOw i had get his attention.~ happy.! really..
oh.! i miss a part.. which on the day he spike hair. he wrote me a note.. i was siting infront of his friend.. his friend touch my shoulder and pass me the note.~ without turning behind.. i know is him.! is his pass me the note. is not his friend wei zhong.. i know cause i have a strong feeling telling me. and it wil never wrOng. only he this kind of daring persOn will do that. haha.~ and i start to reply him.. at first is nice to chat with passing the note but after i feel he start to get annoy. i feel sOme dislike him and he make me scold by teacher.!! wat... fire.~ and paiseh. and he laugh me sOmemore when i get scold.. LOLx. i reali feel kungfu-ing him. lucky he not siting beside me. if not sure whack him nicely xD haha.
then he start to wan my hp num.. and so i gave him.~ rmb.? i m trying to know him. bingO. i got it.~ he start msg me in class.! i m happy that i got his number.. and after that i realise i make a super big misstake.! that is he start to spam me during the cool night.. cause i have been busying study for my next day exam.. what the.. i just slow reply him and he start spam me "bagur" wah... my hp keep rang and keep vibrate. i feel wan throw it in to sOmewhere.!! he spam me until i have no chanCe to reply him.! the msg is just keep cOming in nonstop.!! i feel like killing people dy. i hate him alot that time. i really really hate him..!! then i have nO choice just off my dam hp.~ on fire.. after i finish all my project and everything. is time to sleep.
i on baCk my hp.. its cOmes again.!! his msg... arr.~ chil chil.. i keep chil myself. and just delete it one by one.! gearm sia.. but to this type of special guy.! alien.. i cant angry to him. i have to chil. i know if i angry then he wil do it again and feel he sucess make me angry.~ haha. never let him dream that way.. finally the msg i had delete all.. all his msg. then i start telling him i am a play girl so he wont put any interes on me even have a interes to spam me.!! but... after i telling him i m a play girl.. he dint angry me but he say he understand y.. wow.! faint.!! i really surrender. but that day onward.. he did not spam me already..
next lessOn we same class again. and i see him once mOre. he request to sit with me. so i sit with him on chemistry and physic class sit behind the class.. first time i sit with him.. i am quite happy. ^.^ i am just so near to him.. i leave my friend and i sit with him.! LOLx. i am really bad right. i dunO what poisOn he had giv me until..haha.~ while we start to play truth and dare.~ he always him -.-' but finally he let me win :p then i dare him to kiss me and he dare me same thing to.. i just wanna to test him.. to test his heart.! started wanting his heart. not just want to know him only.. and how dare him.~ he kiss me on the stairs before we go back home. my first kiss from him.~ i..... sweet til i dunO how to describe.!! he make me miss it alot.~
after that i start sit with him in the class. start talk to him. chat with him.. and alot.. play.~ tickle him and laugh along.. he is just a devil. finally i found a devil in my life.. is him.!! i started to fall on him.. my heart start jumping faster when everytime i see him.. i feel i have the most happy time with him.~ i start to want thw whole week only got thursday so i can meet him everyday.. and we get closer day by day.. i miss him mOre day by day.! i start to love him... but i keep it in heart.. then..
on 31 may.. we went to sushi king.. and he ask for couple face to face.. he whisper to my ear " would you be mine.? " i am super happy and i agree.. on that day. we is an official couple.~ he hug start to hug me.. hold my hand. and he leave summit with giving me goodbye kiss.. that is sweet thing ever i had in my life.. on that time onward. i start love his smile.. cause when he smile really leng zai and sweet my heart.. he cool that time was so cool. xD i fall on his every actiOn. and i start to exchange his secret and he started to tell me his secret that he dun ever tell people..
he is just like my dream princes. he basketball player. he sing. dance. shuffle.. liquid. and genius. and leng zai and he is a devil.~ the devil i wanted to find for so long.~ already 17 years i been finding.. i found him and i lost him now.. first few week.. our relationship goes well and play happily.. and he gave me his frist unnormal kiss.. but one day..we took awalk outside.. he was holding my hand and i was lying on his shoulder and look for something to eat.! then my dad caught us.. he wan us to break.~ cause he gave me a love mark my dad saw.. and so i request to break.~ this is the first time i cry for him..
but i still cant let him gO.. we together baCk few day later.. then i though things will go right baCk but not.. his love to me start to fade.. and he start to wan me play a game. cannot say " i love u" cannot on top of him. hug him and sOme.. that week is the mOst terrible week i get.. i m start to suffer. i know his love graph to me had droping.. i just wan to bring it up.~ and i did.. we back to normal again.. but nO long more... his heart fade away again.~ this is the 2nd time.. we talk on the stairs.. i ask him.? " do u still love me.? " he shake his head and say only can be friend.. i dun trust him and i keep asking til i cant hold on anymOre.. i cried infront of him and he also... i cry alot.!! he try to hug me. and i push him away... we break.. our 2nd time break.!
i cry alot after that... i start learn how to cry and i cant be strong anymOre.. then.. but the next day.. i think very probably. i wan tel him " i wont love him anymOre. " so that day.. he totally different. i know he was try to act like normal but his smile is the worst smile i ever saw.! he just holding.. he wanted to cry.. i know. he cant take it. after class. i pull him down to the stairs.. and he start to cry. is dark. so i act in i dunno he cry but i cnt let him just cry like this.~ so i just sms and told him " i wont love u anymore.." then he cry more. i am to hurt to lie him. so i pull him up and hug him so he can cry on my shoulder.. after that day.. everything back to normall.. he love me more. he found his love back.~ i tot everything is over.! but not yet..
btw that we have one unfrogetable memory :p is we kena lock in the emergency stair case. we are lock. is dark scary.. my heart like going to pump out.. how.? how to go our.? die la... lock inside.. so chill my self.. keep thing ways.. i took his phone cal the counter to open back.~ phew... luckily.. i call my ex go up the stairs and i tell the worker to go down ckeck there is a death rat.. ad he quickly run out.. xD haha if the worker catch us dating there.. sure kena.! LOLx. y they suddenly lock the door wor. pig la.~ and many thing happen in the class.. scold my teacher cause we use to play in class. haha and alot..
we had alot alot of memory..!!
we sit together. i feed him eat before. eat together and lot more
while this time... he had his family problem... he start put me aside for so many days.. i dunno he still love me anot.~ i think he not le.. so we break d.~ story end.. our happiness.. is just memory.! i really miss him.. til nOw.. i hurt til dunnO how to cry again.! we are just friend now.. and friend thats stil hurt.. thank ming sung. u let me learn alot and let me love u alot. and i til keep it.. bie!
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